Lately my spiritual life has been kind of dry. I was doing my daily Bible reading, which consists of reading through the Bible chronologically. I was praying, though inconsistently.
I felt like I was just going through the motions. Then the motions stopped.
I stopped getting up early, which is when I read my bible and so I wasn’t reading my bible at all. I knew that was useless, but I let it slide. I let life get in the way.
Despite keeping every waking moment busy with life, I still had that hunger. I still wanted my Jesus. I still needed Jesus. I still wanted to know him better, serve him better.
One day I was able to get some time away. Usually I take this time to do some blogging, but this time I decided to take time to assess my heart. With God’s help, I wanted to see where I was and how to fix it.
I have never heard God speak, but I have felt little nudges in a direction. Is this a calling? I don’t know, but I felt compelled to write. I was compelled to write the graces that God had placed in my life.
Maybe the reason I had arrived in this dry place is because I had forgotten, I had grace amnesia. So I wrote down this grace that God placed on my mind, and as I started writing, God reminded me of grace upon grace. This one grace turned into seven and I was overflowing with the joy of the Lord and God’s peace. He loves me!
He is still here. The way that I can see Him, even in these dry times, is to remind myself of His graces. I remember better when I write them down.
My advice to someone who is in a spiritual drought is don’t ignore your relationship with God. Sometimes we cant feel him but He is there. He promised. He is faithful. Keep seeking Him.
Something else that helped me was changing up my Bible reading plan. I decided to skip the year reading plan and went to good old Philippians. Philippians soothes my soul, edifies me, it was just the change I needed.
Pray. Talk to God. Ask Him to fill that void your feeling.
Don’t forsake him. He didn’t and will never forsake you.
Write down the graces He has bestowed upon you, remember what He’s done for you. This is what Ann Voskamp talks about in One Thousand Gifts. I have just begun my list and look forward to adding to it each day and remembering how He’s always here.
Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
(Philippians 3:12-14 ESV)